Where have I been?

So much has happened since my last entry.
I have found writing a challenge in the face of life and death.
The passing of three beautiful children to whom I was distantly
but lovingly connected.
It has given so much pause.
I have not been in mourning exactly, but in suspension,
as I negotiate the waters of perplexity.
I, am
They, are
We together, express it all.
"Dead" or "alive", we are all that is and all that is, is us.